NaNoWriMo

i signed up for NaNoWriMo (http://www.nanowrimo.org/).

can't believe i've done it, but i have. and i really don't want to NOT finish this. i really don't. oh, christ, if this ends in the same old mess (distractions, procrastinations, EXCUSES!), i'll be sick.

no, i'm doing it. writing a friggin' book. i imagine it'll be god awful and i won't want to show it to anyone, BUT... that little ugly bird will be a lovely swan one day. i'll make her so.

november (National Novel Writing Month) was less than a week away when i realized that it was that time of year. this is not the first time i've drooled over the notion of diving into the deep end of the pool. SO, i haven't given a whole lot of thought to what the hell i'm going to write. there's the script i have that's all laid out, scene for scene... but wasn't i convinced it was a film, not a book?

on the NaNoWriMo site i discovered that they host this same masochistic challenge for screenwriters (http://www.nanowrimo.org/eng/scriptfrenzy). it's in april. maybe i should save the script. start fresh. completely fresh. not an idea in my head. empty... hey, might as well get ready for the hours of writer's block that's a-headin' my way!

can you tell i'm nervous?

ONE MONTH TO WRITE A NOVEL. me, who claims to have NO time. NONE. but... here i am writing THIS... this blog.

i can do this.